Ask and You Shall Receive My last post (which was in January of 2013) covered events up to November of 2012. I had full intentions to recap Christmas but frankly, time has slipped away from me. I have been dealing with multiple issues over the last few months I have come to realize how much I have grown in my walk with Christ. If you cannot see changes being made in yourself through God's mighty works, then what exactly are you doing? Sorry but we all have flaws....I will gladly tell you all of mine but I dont think I could list them all in one post, or even multiple. I can be very prideful & condesending, or lets just say "critical spirit." I have prayed for God to show me myself. I started this last year. Well, he did! And It was not pretty!!! I also asked for God to increase my Fruits of the Spirit. This would really help with some of the stuff that I saw in myself. Patience, love, joy, peace....Those are some pretty big ones for me. Love and Patience being almost obselete in my life. God's word says he hears our prayers. Boy did he here this one and began answering instantaneously. I felt things in my heart starting to turn. Love for people started growing, I began to try and understand people more and see them through God's eyes. Compassion grew for people. Then he started working on my patience. I did not notice at first but b/c I loved more, I was more patient. But I know I had so much more to learn. The test have become harder and harder. I have spent time trying to understand exactly what he is doing here and how much he thinks I can actually take. But I am finding that I am handling each thing with perspectives I have never known, new thought life (God's),and with Grace and with Love. I am still making mistakes on a daily basis. I have still let the enemy use my tongue and my words. I have let him put thoughts in my head and they have grown into something more. Controling the toungue is huge. What a powerful tool. I admit my toungue has been used as a mighty mighty weapon and not a good weapon. But in my marriage, with my kids, I can almost see his hand over my mouth. And though all of these things, joy and peace comes. I have had several God moments through these trying times and realized he is still Sovereign. He is the author and finisher of my faith. He is growing my faith and growing my roots to be strong and secure and withstand the trials of life. In the midst of all of this, I have found myself happier than I have ever been. I have truly been relying on him and him alone, and it feels pretty good. He is FAITHFUL but just know that if you pray for God to show you yourself and change what you see, BE PREPARED! It is the most testing yet rewarding experience you will ever have.